It's amazing how one person can affect your life so badly. Call it a cowardly act, but there were times when R felt completely helpless. She couldn't do or say anything to this.
There was this person, who seemed to have an empowering affect on her, like she felt all cold with this human. R never felt so weak in her life. She didn't know what it was but always tried to figure what it was. She tried to befriend her, tried so hard and never knew why she was doing this in the first place, R never like her anyway. She couldn't care any less of her. R secretly wished that she disappeared or thoughts that awakened the evil within her.
This person was stubborn, selfish,sick, dominating, evil and conceited. Then why? Why did R try so hard that this person like her. What was she to her. Nothing. But they shared the same space almost like her own shadow.Is that why? The need to please. The feeling of someone hating you so much and not caring about it at all was killing R. She wanted to do anything to please her, for her to be liked, at the same time of not caring much about her, still having nasty thoughts about her. How was this possible?
Is it possible to feel two different feelings about one person at the same time? "How did it work?", R pondered, "How did it?".